Learned a super f-ing-awesomely-ridiculous-yet-still-a-very-f-ing-good advice today. Sometimes we just tend to feed our ego too much. I mean TOO MUCH. To the point of not thinking straight.

Well... We tend to justify our actions as in, like, everything (well, almost everything) we did and "will do" is right or correct, whichever term you prefer. But then again, when we look back, somehow all those bullshit becomes... meaningless... Haha... It's not until a friend or whoever it is tells you that everything inside your mind at that time was just some crazy bollocks, only then you will realize it.

But still... EGO is still EGO. And mine is hungry as hell. Haha. Time to feed it folks. But maybe after learning about this I'll give my EGO a diet. LOL.

Peace out.

In the end, it turns out that I can't trust you yea?
You expect me to keep my mouth shut but you can't seem to shut your own.
Oh my, poor baby.

Come the time you need someone you trust.
Nobody's beside you and all you need is assurance.
But now the time has come that you are back to where you are before.
Then I'll just fade away, won't even remain as a memory.
Just a nightmare in your dreams.

Leave It All

So guys, this is the latest song composed by me for Eclipse. It's supposed to be a graduation song, but well, you decide what it means. LOL.

Eclipse - Leave It All
Music and Lyrics by Jeremy Januar

I know we're reaching,
the crossroads of our life.
Life goes on a different track,
for all of us.

But I know that this is not goodbye,
this is just a memory that we have to keep inside.

It's the end of this page,
beginning of a new one.
In this journey we called life.
(We'll never know)

It feels like an age from the day that we start,
seems like a blink of an eye it's all to me now.

We're not falling apart,
keep it all together.

All the quarrels left behind,
all the worries kept inside,
all the fight that we once had,
leave it all (4x)
behind...

Looking back now,
to the past that we once had.
Igniting memories,
of the days we left behind.

It's a finish line yet a brand new start,
not a happy end but not a sad one, too.

We're not falling apart,
keep it all together.

All the quarrels left behind,
all the worries kept inside,
all the fight that we once had,
leave it all (4x),
behind...

Time,
flew so fast.
I didn't even notice,
it was time for us to go.
My vision is so blurry now.
Can we ever go back,
to the yesterday,
yesterday we love...

Just wait for the recording. Spread the word guys.

~Eclipse~

Don't you dare say anything about my efforts,
the one you choose doesn't even need to do anything.

Please don't make up stupid reasons,
you are insulting my intelligence.

Holy crap...

Just be a man and say it ouy loud... To me.
Don't be a bitch and stab me behind my back.

New Semester

Start of a new semester. Damn, lots of things happened during the past holiday. I had a surgery, the Jakarta bombing and me passing all subjects. Wow.

Hope this semester will be better though ^^.